The Thing She Can be Addicted To

(An Sms)
Him: Hey you, what are you doing now?
Her: Busy. I am writing up a new article.
Him: You sound unhappy.
Her: I am just tired. This is the 2nd article I have to write today.
Him: Anything I can do to cheer you up?
Her: Can you call me? I want to hear you voice....
Him: I'll do that in the next 20 minutes, after I am done with my meeting. Ok?
Her: Ok. Thanks.

(20 minutes later, a phone call)
Him: Hi there....
Her: Hey...
Him: Still working on your article?
Her: Yes, and I kind of have a writer's block.
Him: What should I do to make you happy?
Her: Drive here and hug me.
Him: Is that what you want?
Her: Forget it. You cannot drive for 2 hours just to do that.
Him: Do you really want me to come to your place?
Her: Hmm....
Him: Ok. If that is what you want, go downstairs. I'll meet you there.
(He cut the call)

(She called him back)
Her: You are joking.
Him: No. I'm in the city, and now I'm in front of your office. Just go downstairs.
Her: Why don't you go up to the 3rd floor and see me? I don't trust you.
Him: I cannot find any spot to park my car. And I can't just leave my car here, can I?
Her: You are kidding me....
Him: No. Just go downstairs.
(He cut the call again)

(She called him again)
Her: You are not here, aren't you?
Him: Just go downstairs and see me.
Her: No, you can't be in the city. Not today.
Him: Who says that?
(He cut the call again)

She finally went downstairs.... And there he was, in his car, in front of her office... holding a bouquet of roses.... And she got more than one hug. What a nice surprise.

Aria di Bulan Puasa

Puasa udah hampir 2 minggu kok ya baru bikin postingan soal puasa... hahaha.... Tahun lalu gue nggak puasa karena kan hamil dan melahirkan. Nggak terasa ya Aria sudah mau setahun umurnya. Kayaknya baru kemarin gue mikir2 wajahnya dia bakal kayak apa... skrg dia sudah bisa ngoceh2 dengan bahasa planet yang hanya dimengerti oleh dirinya sendiri. Dia juga sudah bisa buka sendiri lemari-lacinya yang paling bawah. Sebetulnya, awalnya adalah waktu gue mengganti isi lemari-laci itu. Memang gue rutin mengganti isi lacinya, baju2 yg kecil dikeluarin, diganti yg baru. Nah, gue baru sadar kalau skrg Aria sudah bisa ikut2 membongkar laci. Begitu laci itu gue buka... dia langsung berdiri di depannya, dan mengeluarkan seluruh isinya tanpa kecuali! Duh biyuuuung.... Sambil teriak2 seneng banget, dia keluarin seluruh isi lacinya, trus dia guling2an di atas baju2 yang amburadul di lantai itu. Hhmmm... anak gue badung begini, nyontoh siapa ya? Hahahaha....

Sejak itu, dia 'belajar' membuka sendiri laci yg paling bawah. Ya udah, skrg isi lacinya diganti, yg tadinya baju2 jadi botol2 bangsa minyak telon, baby cologne, sabun dkk yg masih baru... Soalnya kalau dia acak2 baju terus... bisa2 dekil sebelum dipake dong bajunya....

Bulan puasa ini... Aria ikutan bangun sahur. Dia begitu bangun langsung berdiri di pinggiran baby box, ngintip2 keluar lewat pintu yang terbuka sedikit, sambil teriak2 dengan bahasa planet. Kalau udah gitu, ya harus diangkat. Dan harus didudukin di kursi makannya, pura2 ikut sahur deh. Padahal dia sih cuma ngetok2 meja pake sendok. Ada2 aja tuh anak. Kata nyokap, Aria ikutan sahur cuma kalau gue juga sahur. Waktu gue ke Bali, dia sama sekali nggak ikut bangun. Waktu gue nggak puasa, dia juga nggak ikutan sahur lagi. Kok bisa sih?

Trus dia juga lagi seneng minum pake gelas. Padahal ya tumpah2, bajunya pasti jadi basah semua. Beberapa hari yang lalu dia juga senang makan krupuk. Padahal makan aja masih bubur blender... tp sdh minta krupuk. Aneh. Tp skrg krupuk dihentikan supply-nya karena dua hari lalu Aria kena radang tenggorokan.

Ngomong2 soal radang tenggorokan... gue sempet trauma waktu suatu malam Aria badannya tiba2 hangat tp nggak rewel, plus nggak mau makan dan minum, mulutnya dikunci rapet banget.... Gue langsung ingat lagi waktu dia demam berdarah. Oh no. Rasanya pagi itu gue mau ke kantor susah banget. Trus malemnya, waktu panasnya nggak turun juga, langsung gue bawa ke dokter. Dokternya juga sama traumanya kayak gue. Begitu dilihat tenggorokan Aria merah (waktu itu DBD dia komplikasi radang tenggorokan), dia langsung mencet2 badan anak gue, cek bintik.... Alhamdulillah ga ada. Tapi tetep dikasih form untuk cek laboratorium kalau paginya masih tetep panas. Malam itu dikasih antibiotik satu karung. Alhamdulillah lagi... obatnya tokcer. Sebelum tidur Aria udah mau minum susu lagi. Dan sepanjang malam minum susu setiap sejam sekali 30ml. Ok... simboknya ini yg pagi2 bangun ngantuuuuuk banget krn tiap jam hrs bikin susu. Tp seneng lah waktu paginya Aria sdh mulai ngoceh2 lagi. Gue sempet main2 di rumah sampe jam 11-an sebelum berangkat ke kantor.

Hari ini Aria sudah ceria kembali. Tadi pagi mandi sudah dengan gembira, nggak mau diangkat dari ember. Main air terus sama main bebek baru hadiah ulang tahun yang datangnya in advance (Thank you!). Rasanya memang nggak ada lagi yg lebih berharga daripada anak sehat....

Trus, tadinya rencana lebaran mau di Singapore... Tapiiii... kehabisan tiket. Ya sutra... batal deh Om, mau ketemuan di ulangtahunan... Juga rencana menengok Tante ini. Huhuhuhu.... Ya sudah, semoga nanti2 tidak batal lagi.

This is The Final

It is official now. It's just the two of us: Aria & Ibu.

Bodoh

Gue ternyata sangatlah tolol dalam hal ini.
Gitu aja kok nggak ngerti... nggak bisa memutuskan. Dasar.
Selama ini ngapain aja? Bukannya belajar.
Udah lah... maklum... bodoh.

Di Bali

Gue skrg di Bali. Di tempat yang sangat bagus... dan bisa dipastikan sangat mahal. I have my own buttler who will assist me 24 hours. But I miss my Aria. And I miss you too. Better check with my buttler that I can go home on Sunday night, instead of on Monday as scheduled in my itinerary.

Contemplation

... loving you is the most beautiful thing for me in perhaps the last decade... I don't want to face the fact if it's not you destined for me....

Thank You, Again

For taking me to dinner, driving me home, picking me up to work, buying me lunch, and showing me everything.

The Most Happiest Time

Terima Kasih

I know you did a big thing today. And I am glad that you did that... for me. Thank you.

Heaven

I was very very very busy lately. With my working in and out of the office, with my edgy situation, with my feeling... with my life... up to the point I realize I didn't spend enough time with my Aria. I skipped a lot of his morning bath time because I had to leave the house so early, and most of the time I came home very late long after he fell asleep.

Yesterday, I was so tired I didn't even remember driving home. I left around 6, and got home by 12... By the time I entered my room, of course my Aria was already in his bed. Since I didn't see him the whole day, I was quite happy to know it was around 12.30, time for his midnight milk. I picked him up and kissed his cheek to wake him up. He didn't open up his eyes, but he drank his milk anyway.

Usually, after he finished his milk I would put him back to his baby box, but I didn't do that last night. I let him sleep in my bed. He slept on his tummy, as usual, his cute face was facing toward me. I wanted to put my arm around his back, but then I saw his little fingers were looking for something, so I gave my hand and he held it like didn't want to let it go. I let my face glued to my baby's forehead, I could smell his scent. I could not remember the last time we slept in the same bed... but I will never forget that my baby was the only one keeping me from falling apart.

With my hand in his hand, it was very uncomfortable position for me. After almost the whole week of exhaustion, even though I was so tired and I knew I would wake up with back pain if I stayed in that position -it really was not a healthy pose, still I felt something better than happy in my heart being so close to my Aria. With Harry Connick Jr. sang More in the background... it almost felt like heaven.



This is one of many moments I want to share with you. Just as I wanted to share the green scenery I enjoyed in the golf course, or the blue ocean I saw when playing with my son by the beach under the morning sun, or the nice book I found in the bookstore, or the silly stories I heard from those executives on that stupid tel-conference, or the Ruth's concert last night .... I really want to share a lot of things, with you. You know who you are.

Funeral Style

Bencong Fashion Editor (BFE): Di, it's been a week....
Gue (G): Of what?
BFE: You are wearing black outfits.
G : So?
BFE: Are you attending a funeral everyday?
G : What?
BFE: I used to see you in pink or red....
G : And?
BFE: Lately you are like someone who will come to a party with dresscode: Six Feet Under. Is anything wrong?
G : Hopefully not.

Closing

All we need is a beautiful closure. And we did it, didn't we?

Our Way

Even if we walk toward different directions now, I still hope that someday we both will find circles so we can turn around and meet again at one point.

Apa Maksudnya?

Why did you say something like that?
Did you think that will make me happy?

STOP IT.

Semoga Bukan Insomnia

Gue nggak bisa tidur tadi malem. Ini memang bukan yang pertama kalinya. Dan gue juga tahu sebabnya. Itu yang bikin sebel. Karena I can't do anything about it. Jengkel. Telat mikir banget. Nggak bisa tidur tentu bikin ngantuk kan? Padahal hari ini ada jadwal wawancara dan pemotretan. Moga2 narasumbernya lagi in a good mood biar gue nggak dijutekin krn pasti gue nanti agak2 error. Huh. Oh ya, rapat redaksi ya jam 10? Haduh. Rasanya pengen minggat aja deh. Males banget. Ini semua gara2 nggak bisa tidur. Sungguh bukan awal hari yang menarik.

The One Who Makes My World Make Sense

Ritual pagi Aria: bangun tidur, main di rumput... sayangnya tadi pagi mata kirinya digigit serangga jadi agak bengkak. Kasihan, Sayangnya Ibu....

Dari Akhir Pekan

Jalan bareng cowok yang nggak pinter... ternyata kurang menyenangkan ya... hehehehe.... maaf... maaf.... Tapi beneran, nggak pengen lagi.

Wish Me Luck

If I am longing for those nice short messages

And I am waiting for those blinking screens

I will always remember what you said

So

Until we meet again.

I Have To Do It

Never thought that it will be this hard.

Addicted to Illusions

"Dee, lagi ngapain?"

"Dee, otw to office?"

"Dee, udah bangun?"

"Dee, can I call you now?"

"Dee, udah mandiin Aria?"


If that was the dark side you wanted me to know... guess that thing didn't change my feeling.