Hello, Monday

I really miss your morning greeting. I have this habit to grab my phone while waking up in the morning. For years, I used to see your name blinking and just a little note from you would work as a booster of the day.

I miss to see you here in my house. Sitting in my kitchen, eating while talking about life and work, and everything in between.

I also miss to see you sit behind the steering wheel, driving me after office. And we could stop by somewhere to have a very nice dinner before reaching home.

I really do miss you.

You

...

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you

...

(You're Still You - Josh Groban)

You Are Always Welcome

The persons that belong to you will come and stay. You do not have to chase them.

Then, How?

I think I really was born to love you. You know who you are.

Is It?

I walk alongThe streets we used to walk
On a moonlit night together
How could such bliss
End up like this
I eat alone
At a table meant for two
And I miss the conversation
Now that you've gone away
There's no sleep for the hearts that break
If like me you lay awake
That's the risk that people take
Saying it's over
When I get home
Well, I pour myself a drink
From an almost empty bottle
Downing it fast
Drowning the past
I hear the phone
And I almost hesitate
'Cause it might be you that's callin'
Saying you're still awake
Do you miss the times we've spent
Wishing you could change events
Then I guess it made no sense
Saying it's over
We've got to be crazy to ever let
Love slip through our hands
Are we living to regret
Saying it's over
Do you miss the times we've spent
Wishing you could change events
Guess we let it make no sense
Saying it's over
Saying it's over
(Saying It's Over - Bobby Caldwell)

Same Here, Sunshine

They say that if someone misses you, there's an 80% chance he will show up in your dream. So happy to see you last night. And... I miss you too, for sure.

Morning Routine

I am still doing my morning routine, walk 2 or 3 km a day. And of course I miss the moment you surprised me with your presence. Or the moment we do the walk together in those parks, near or far. Likely I need to add one thing in my routine: to miss you.

Traditional Cloth

Entah sejak kapan... gue tertarik dgn kain2 batik. Tanpa peduli batik tulis atau batik cap atau kain-motif-batik... kalau suka ya dibeli. Dari jaman kuliah, sdh punya terusan batik. Sementara banyak orang hanya pakai batik kalau untuk kondangan (terutama bapak2).

10 tahun lalu gue sudah pakai kain batik ke kantor. Atasannya pakai t-shirt dan cardigan. Pakai boot. The first time we met, I wore one of my fine silk collection, if you still remember :)

Trus beberapa tahun belakangan, punya kesempatan ke tempat2 pengrajin batik. Hanya beli2 aja sih, niatnya mau dijahit jadi baju, tapi setelah membayangkan proses menggambar mori, membatik, mewedel, melorod... kok ya sayang kalau kain ini digunting. Akibatnya? Kain2 itu menumpuk dgn manis di lemari. Kalau yg sutra, sempat dipakai ke kondangan juga sih, dengan kebaya manis atau seragaman.

Baru sejak tahun lalu, atau dua tahun lalu... sejak pindah ke TJP, pas juga orang2 sedang "melek batik" dan menggiatkan kebaya. Sampai ada tagar #selasaberkebaya. Krn gue nggak punya banyak kebaya, jadi ya gue ramaikan dengan #selasaberkain. Hehehe.... Dan kalau ngantor, seringnya mix kain batik dgn sneaker. Lucu lhoooo.... Hanya yg jadi PR kalau mau sholat. Kain2 ini bikin gue susah duduk tahiyat. Ya ampun. Gadis2 kraton itu dulu gimana ya kalau mau sholat? Jd kalau pas berkain, mau sholat... ya gue ganti dulu pakai sarung.... Sering jadi bahan ketawaan sih kalau pas ada yg barengan sholat. Bodo amat deh ah. Oh ya, agak ribet juga kalau mau pipis, krn gue nggak suka kain yg nggak rapi. Jadi? Terpaksa ucul2 semua, lalu setelah selesai hajat, dipakai lagi pelan2. Keribetan yg sukarela dijalani demi menunjukkan kalau gue bangga jadi perempuan Indonesia (dan sangat bangga lahir sebagai perempuan Jawa tempat batik2 ini berasal).

Dan... baru sadarlah gue kalau koleksi gue cukup banyak. Mungkin kalau digelar semua, bisa menutup satu lapangan kasti. Hahahaha....

Gue punya apa saja? Ada batik Indramayu, batik Lasem (ini banyak banget, ada kali 10 pcs), batik Bayat, batik Cirebon, batik Pekalongan, batik Gresik, batik Madura, dan tentu dari Solo & Yogya (meski sering nyaru juga sih yg mana kalau dua ini krn sama2 warna sogan). Batiknya warna-warni, seru dan ceria.

Tadi pagi, nyokap sedang ritual bulanan ngeluarin kain2 batik dari lemari. Sudah sering sih lihat batik2 lama nyokap, tp kok kurang tertarik krn warna2 yg monoton khas batik orang dulu. Tapi tadi baru lihat ada batik lawasan. Yg memang sudah lawas, wong itu dibatik sendiri sama almarhumah eyang putri.... Gue pakai... kok lucu. Trus gue liatin nyokap. "Ya udah bawa sana, wong aku ya nggak pakai. Dua kain yg lain kan sudah dibawa sama ibunya Jawa. Kemarin buat main kemah2an." Ladalah....

Jadi gue tiba2 beride untuk ke kantor pakai kain aja. Nah kan... makin ga kepakai deh segala gaun2 gue. Hehehehe....

My Posting

Someone asked me to post something in my blog. Just to indicate that I am ok. Here you go.

I am ok. Or maybe not... and pretend that I am... but still... this is my normal, try hard to be ok.