My Sunshine

Today someone was accompanying me on my morning walk. Yes yes yes indeed... he is that special someone. And as usual, our meeting would not be just a simple one. Nope. It was full of fruitful discussion. We talked about work, life, love, and everything in between. It was a brisk 45 minutes walk that felt like a blink of an eye. Short but powerful. Thing I am always be sure of: the sun will shine on me. He is nonetheless my sunshine. No matter what.

The Journey So Far

It is almost official that I am now a permanent employer of TJP. Alhamdulillah.

Lucu dan seru adalah kata yg bisa menggambarkan proses pengangkatan. Krn perlu gue akui, tidak mudah. Tidak spt perusahaan2 sebelum ini yg gue mmg sdh dipastikan akan menjadi karyawan tetap dan probation hanya basa-basi... di sini semua diukur dan dinilai dgn gamblang dan terbuka. Jadi mmg hrs dihadapi dgn benar. Gue hrs bikin presentasi ttg pekerjaan, rencana ke depan, manajerial di divisi ini dll... hal baru yg bikin merinding disko.

Anyway, I passed the test. Skrg tinggal tunggu MCU, and I am all set.

Tahun lalu sempat berpikir untuk ada di MI sampai pensiun. Tentunya krn pekerjaan yg menyenangkan dan tim yg sampai skrg blm tertandingi. Tp lalu ada tawaran yg menarik dan akhirnya krn beberapa push & pull factors jd diterima. Dan ini adalah pencapaian yg buat gue cukup signifikan.

Jadi terkenang di masa2 dulu, masa masih cupu. Bahkan bingung mau embellish cv.... Lalu menerima tawaran jadi pemred. Lalu pindah media, dan skrg ada di sini. Di tempat yg kalau gue sebut namanya akan mendapat tatapan "waaaaah" gitu....

Hmm... bisa sampai di titik skrg nggak mudah. Tp setelah sampai di sini, semua terasa natural... semacam "memang seharusnya begitu". Tentu ada alasannya. Apa? Personal coach :)

Yes I do have my own personal coach. Yg selalu mendampingi di saat2 harus mengambil keputusan, terutama soal karier. Dia yg akan mengatur semuanya supaya berjalan sebagaimana seharusnya. Supporting me all around, non stop, since the beginning of my career. Cannot thank him enough. He is one specific person who -I believe- will also read this post. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.


















And you know... I love you.

Are You Real?

Maybe you are not
missing the person,
missing the moment,
or even missing the pain.

Maybe you just miss
being a part of something,
something you think
you never had before.



(A Poem with Your Name - Adi K)

My Bad

I'm always addicted
to the wrong things.

You for instance.



(A Poem with Your Name - Adi K)

Wounded

From the
darkest heartbreaks
our wounds
bleed poetry.



(A Poem with Your Name - Adi K)

Ouch!

There are
mighty strings
that always pulling
me back to you,
called good
memories.



(A Poem with Your Name - Adi K)

Same Old Story

I know you'd prefer
to be there
than here
because there,
even though stormy,
is home
and here,
even though sunny,
is only an adventure.



(A Poem with Your Name - Adi K)

Thank You

Terima kasih untuk tetap konsisten mencemaskan aku selama 14 tahun terakhir. #youknowwhoyouare

Maybe....

“Budiana, people are not bandaids.”

Selama ini tnyt gue sering salah. Gue tahu bhw orang2 yg datang dalam kehidupan gue kemungkinan membawa sesuatu utk gue, good or bad. So I treat them as I wish.  Maaf utk orang2 yg gue manfaatkan sbg penyembuh luka (atau penambal luka?).